Dear diary...

Hari ni, 28 disember 2009...

bermulanya semester baru dalam pengajianku..semester ni aku amek dua subjek bawah dr.luqman...kelasnya, jumaat, sabtu dan ahad..hehe..gonna make my weekend soo busy...its ok..tak kisah pown..sebab weekdays bley masuk lab..;) then, less time for me untuk berpoya2..bley jimat duet..hihihihi

baru2 ni ihsan cakap, nasir offer peluang untuk keje kat muar..tmpat dia keja..as an asst eng..ok la tu..hopefully gonna be a good start for him...tak kisah pun kat mana ihsan nak keje..as long as he is happy and earn monthly halal salary..;)

my lappy, gonna be sent to hp tower this coming thursday...hoping for miracle..coz i dont have enough money for repairing...or buying a new one...huhu~~ baru sedar...money is more than anything..hehe

i grown up as an ordinary person, i do lots of good, bad things in my life, well, most of it i prefer to keep it to myself...but now, its time for me to settle down...because world is not gonna be with me all the time.. we will be leaving soon enough...

recently, i do have this feeling..after i looked at somebody with tudung labuh in lrt when i rushing back home from klcc, i feel deeply calm... one time, when i was in matric, wearing a tudung labuh is my goal to achieve...i started slowly with stokins and learn with usrah and all those stuff..but i cant hold more than my university years....so sad huh..i cant even reach my goal... ;( mungkin kalo org lain baca ni, mesti sumer org pk, waa...bajet baik budak nih..hahaha...tapi, just saying the truth...i wanna find strength now..its not easy to get Allah's hidayah...and once He gave it to us, and we refuse to accept, kita takkan dapat lagi da...nilai hidayah pemberian Allah, tidak ternilai...harganya terlalu tinggi...subhanallah...jadi, kepada kawan2, hargailah pemberian dan anugerah Allah kepada kita, tak kisahla dalam bentuk apa pun..

Now, when this feeling came back to me, i try not to rush..but i am afraid i will lost it back..i try to find friends that can support me.. i told her what i've done so that she can try to console me..and help me...tapi mungkin dia pun tak tahu camne nak respon..but to her, jgn salah faham..aku tak bgtau ko sebab aku nak bangga2 dengan dosa yang aku penah buat..tapi aku nak mintak tolong..kesilapan aku bukan kecik...aku perlukan dorongan..supaya aku tak terjebak lagi...Ya Allah..ampunilah dosaku...

aku tak sabar nak berukhwah dgn org2 yang boleh tolong aku..kawan2 tolong la aku..tolong juga kawan2 kita yang lain yang penah buat salah..tak salah tolong org, kita jugak dapat pahala..sama2 ajak org lain masuk syurga..wallahhualam..

rasanya maybe hidup org lain, lain coraknya...hidup aku, i dedicated to all people around me...;)
kdg2 mungkin aku dipergunakan, tapi its ok, harta, duit tak bawa ke mana...yang penting, family, friendship and love...gonna last forever...

so, if i am gonna leave this world some day, hopefully there will be a group of people that will remember that i've been in this world...and i always gonna miss u all..;)